So that is so weird. I thought YOU would be long long gone and I checked it all up and will you stay forever? I havent been in touch in a year I guess now and I have been so crazed and fucked out....I am a prick and I need to get the hell away. its not near right or good to be around. I have no work but I must write and I have no inspiration at all...how depressing! I have found out some crap about a man I used to fuck and it is both disgusting and selfish all at once, not that these things are mutually exclusive you know but by the by, it reminds me once again how outrageously unrelentless and unreasonable I am capable of being. Where will I be next year.....one can only hazard a guess! Dead with a bit of hope. Seriously

You came along on a glorious day and before you were
gone I was crawling again.