Just Do It

Harder to do
Than anything in my life.
I get up everyday at three
My mind splayed,
My brains all over the pillow.
Neck and shoulders are
Whiplash victims
Of their own stress.
Stress from what?
Stress from inability,
From lack of motivation.
From lack of responsilbility.
Can't care,
Won't care attitude,
Disposition.
No interest,
Buckets of ambition.
You see my quandry?
I always liked that word: "Quandry".
Catatonic state of mind.
It is due in 11 days.
20,000 words of nothing.
40 buckets of sweat.
93 barrels of coffee.
108 packets of crisps.
68 chocolate bars.
41 portions of egg fried rice.
76 fucks.
44 Vodka's and white.
76 hairs pulled out.
3 showers.
78 hours of music.
800 cigarettes smoked.
Check?
Check mate.
Average stuff.